may be time to think about change

may be time to think about change

a family gathers, special day celebrated, what does a man think of it all? – coldbrook, 2003

A day after my father’s birthday – happy birthday dad! – I listen to a rocking version of Borderline and ponder how I’ve made it to this point. Pondering should be a job – I’d be awesome at it!

on the streets near my job, nature makes things pretty – May ’16, durhamtown

You ever have those weeks when lots happens? things get crammed into the days, so they seem full? Well as I look back, guess that isn’t really my situation – huh. But it has seemed a swell in general activity and energy – perhaps towards the holiday weekend, yes?

# # #
One more forever.
# # #
wow – … wow.
a story. by someone I don’t know. of a moment in time I’ve lived through. wow
// And you don’t have the strength to get into it.//

another photo, perhaps, so I don’t go down that particular rabbity hole, eh? –

durhamtown, the bull city. all growing up. may ’16

King’s is a good place to grab a burger from time to time, geer street beer garden across the way is s good place for meals and pints. Change in the last 9+ years has been amazing, and perhaps I can see where some places change down, some things change up, yes? I wonder what sammy my dad would enjoy at Kings.

Some things change slowly, over a long time, and they end up not where you’d like them to be. Other things change in an instant. Also not the way you’d like them to be. Catching the fact that the times they are a changing, and being conscious that you can’t stop that, but you can make headway towards where – in the end – you’d like it all to be, how you’d like it to play out – maybe that’s what I’m learning this chapter in my Book of Life.

Being able to say what I want – to know my dad better. Being able to understand I won’t always get what I want. Being ok with that change – from want to have, from desire to reality. Then – and perhaps this is key – then being able to move one step further along the path. Moving forward, in the ‘ever onward, sometimes forward’ mantra. Because that would be nice. Good. Moving forward towards where I want to be.

how nature can easily live with stark differences next to each other – not so we humans, who love our homogeneity! durhamtown, may ’16

I stop and smell the flowers. Well, snap pics of the flowers. I hold open the door for those who are close behind me. I take pride in my ability to motor to and fro. I served in the military. I love my father. I have no idea if this is all it’s supposed to be, and though everything has changed, it’s still me and the world I live in. I happen to find that, as I ponder things, somewhat fascinating.


{10:29a + 26May2016 = Thur morn || KEXP plays The Flaming Lips
Borderline [With Stardeath And White Dwarfs] – because John is a god}