This effort is interesting – it’s the summation of decades of my internal voice now being expressed and captured. Shared, even.
Scary stuff. So very odd. But as I noted today perhaps that’s because I’m learning to crawl. Crawling along the floor of the Creator’s room, poking outlets with my somewhat out of control fingers. Wonder what’s gonna happen!
I sat at home tonight, catching up on a few of the channels I follow. I scrolled through my subscription ‘latest updates’ page – certainly felt out of my league. People know how to do stuff, and can make great videos sharing that. Me? Well … uh. Yeah. Not so sure about anything at the moment. Do know I love my kid, my wife’s amazing, and I have an incredibly supportive Blood. So that’s all good news.
I just have to believe that I’ll be walking in no time.
So, I did it. Totally not freaking out. Well, maybe a little. I suspect however that like a few other critical junctures in my life I’ll have few repercussions that are of the magnitude I fear. C’est la vie, eh?
Now, there seems to be a need for any number of ‘bettering’ actions. Um, having a clue – having the ability to make the video useable. Oh – smooth edits.
Alas those will come, and I will practice in public until then.
Sure – I can blog – words are not hard for me, and occasionally they’re pretty alright. Nearing ‘decent’ at times. Honest.
This – this! – this is harder though. What am I doing? Creating? Like an artist? Naw … that’s not what I do. Well, except the photographs. Sometimes. huh.
I reviewed the amazing effort Boo put in this past summer – just damn.
I ponder the efforts to work harder, and to enjoy the pursuit. Hell, even looking with four eyes I see both what I’d like to obtain – comfort, assurance, joy – and see that it’s a bit of the natural and a bit of the hustle that I worry I don’t possess. But it’s a new venture – nothing ventured nothing gained.
And as it was pointed (pointedly) out this past weekend – hey, Rumbly! (did I hear a ‘you fucker’ in there? maybe; probably. I certainly deserved it)